Not gonna lie, Mercury Retrograde fucked me up this month. IT MESSED ME UP. I wasn’t paying much attention to the cosmos (one thing you should never do is ignore the cosmos) because I was just wandering around in my own little world doing my own thing, and then suddenly I woke up on December 3rd feeling freaky as hell. I kid you not, I was absolutely fine until December 2nd and then on the 3rd I woke up and just didn’t feel right – something was off. I thought it was just going to be one of those days, until I woke up on December 4th and the exact same thing was happening, I just couldn’t understand why, I didn’t know what had changed. Later on that evening I’m like “right, what’s going on here, why am I feeling so weird and off all of a sudden, I wonder if it’s anything to do with the planets…….”.
Straight away I’m googling the dates of Mercury Retrograde and guess what? GUESS WHAT. Guess when Retrograde started. ONLY ON DECEMBER 3RD. I was mind blown, I wasn’t even aware of the Retrograde dates and then December 3rd & 4th I noticed that I was feeling really weird, so I Google it to find out Mercury Retrograde had started on the 3rd. THIS UNIVERSE I’M TELLING YOU.
Anyway, long story short – I’m still feeling weird as hell and haven’t gone back to my ‘normal’ self yet, I’m literally so full of energy I feel like I’m actually about to burst. There’s this weird knot in my stomach that you usually get when you’re about to do something really exciting and I have no idea what the hell for. I’m literally restless in the best way, I feel like I need to go and skydive out of a plane or something. I’m feeling so so creative and full of life like I’ve got all this cosmic energy inside me and my body is too big to contain it all, I have no idea what the hell is going on, I literally feel crazy (in the best way) like I just want to go and do some spontaneous shit and dress like a hippy and put glitter all over my face. I probably will. I’m reading a book at the minute called Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert which I’m sure a lot of you will have probably already heard of (review coming soon) and she talks a lot about creative energy as a concept that kind of visits you and lives within you for a period of time – and maybe this is it??? Maybe this ball of creative energy has sparked itself into me and now I’m literally bouncing off the walls, I feel like I’ve taken something I shouldn’t. I feel like my personality has just rocketed to 100mph because I’ve suddenly become this outgoing crazy lady who wants to do everything at once and experience as much as she can. Even as I’m writing this I can barely type because my fingers literally feel like they’re going to fly off the keyboard, I’ve no idea what’s happening but I’m putting it down to Mercury Retrograde and the fact that some weird freaky magic is happening right now.
The feeling I had when I woke up on December 3rd I’d experienced lots of times before, and I was actually quite bummed because I’d had such a good few weeks, I was so content and literally felt mentally stable for the first time ever and then I just woke up that morning like…oh man, it’s back again. So the next day when I still felt weird I was like right Chloe, instead of wallowing in self pity and the fact that your brain has suddenly decided to do a U-turn overnight, figure out what the hell is going on. The answer? MERCURY RETROGRADE. I try and keep track of Retrograde as much as I can but most of the time I don’t put two and two together when I suddenly start feeling weird and off, I’m just like oh no – the crazy thoughts are back, and then I just spiral down into this pit of I don’t even know what-ness. This time, I caught the feeling the second I realised it had crept its way back into me and now I’m literally going to pin those frickin’ Retrograde dates on my wall to remind myself that there’s a reason I’ve suddenly started going crazy overnight. The universe is whack but I absolutely love it.
I don’t know why I’m writing this, I just had to, I’m literally restless and there’s all these thoughts and ideas pouring out of me and I’m like oh gosh where am I supposed to keep them all.
I don’t even really know what this is but I’m sending it out to all of you guys anyway because you need to feel it, I feel like I’m drunk but completely sober. Who the hell knows, I also probably sound crazy but again, who the cares. Not this gal. I’m so sorry if this post is just me rambling and you’re reading it like Chloe, what the hell????? But literally guys, what the hell????? No idea what’s happening, I’m about to explode and all that’s going to come out is glitter and magic sparks I swear. I’m sending this energy to all of you anyway because I hope you get to experience it, surround yourself with creativity and people that inspire you – LITERALLY BE YOURSELF. BE YOU. BE THE PERSON YOU WANTED TO BE BEFORE THE WORLD TOLD YOU IT WASN’T ENOUGH. BE THE PERSON YOU KNOW YOU TRULY ARE WITHOUT FEAR OF JUDGEMENT. LIFE IS TOO SHORT.
I love you all so very much and I’ll see you in my next post where I hopefully sound a little less crazy (but then again, why the hell not since this is so much fun)
All my love,
(p.s. – if you don’t know what Mercury Retrograde is, it’s the concept that on specific dates throughout the year Mercury looks as if it’s travelling backwards and then basically the universe loses its shit and we all lose our minds. Check it!!)