my little corner of the internet

Hi loves,

Feels like I’ve been MIA again recently – I haven’t, I’ve been writing lots of blog posts behind the scenes and putting up my regular 3 posts a week as usual, but I haven’t actually been interacting as much because again, my mental health is going down the drain (again – I’m working on it, I’m so bored of it now).

I’m glad I have this blog because I feel as though if I didn’t, I might not even exist sometimes at all. I document everything here – music I like, books I’ve read (and what I thought about them), heartbreak, mental health, relationships…everything. All of my thoughts and opinions are documented in this little corner of the internet and without it I feel like I wouldn’t really exist properly. Sounds weird, I know, but if anyone ever needs to know anything about me…I can just direct them here. You want to know what my tattoo means? I already explained it in a post. You want to know what I thought of that book? I already wrote a review on it. You want to know my opinion on body confidence? I already wrote a post about it. You want to know where I’m at with my mental health right now? I already explained it.

It’s very freeing to essentially be able to talk in depth about things happening in my life without fear of judgement – I don’t need to mention names or go into specifics, I’m not trying to throw shade at anyone (that’s not my style though anyway), I can just write about what I’m personally going through, how it’s making me feel and how I’m planning on dealing with it – sometimes you just need to sit down and vent everything out – I’ve always found it extremely helpful for me to get my feelings down on paper because it helps me to make sense of it all a lot better. Bottling things up is never the answer and even though I do this in real life (as in, I don’t talk about my problems out loud) that doesn’t matter because I know I can come on here and write about them instead, which I prefer because that way, it’s documented and I can refer and look back on it whenever I want to. I can look back on posts I made a year ago when I was going through a ‘break up’ and see where my head was at and what I was thinking, or if someone was to ask me about it, instead of having to write out the whole story for them I could just direct them to those posts and say “this is what I was writing during that time as I was going through it, everything is explained here”.

It’s documenting, and even though this blog is as much for you guys to read and enjoy, it’s also for myself to be able to document my thoughts and opinions, knowing I’m leaving at least a tiny little mark out there on the world. I like to look back on things and be able to say hey, if you wanna know my thoughts on this topic, I already wrote about it. It’s so easy, because this blog is me. All I’d ever need to do is direct someone to my blog and say well, if you want to know what type of person I am…here it is.

It allows me to take a positive from a negative situation – yes I may be feeling like the world is on my shoulders right now, but at least I can write about it, at least I can turn it into a blog post and share it with others who may be feeling the same way or need to hear it right now. If what I’m going through can help just one other person, that’s good enough for me.

I really feel like I’ve fulfilled something within me by having this blog, something that I was missing before, sure, there are other creative endeavours I want to take on that I’m not quite confident enough to pursue yet, but this little blog here is a start and I really, really love it. I always say it but I want to expand my horizons, do more, create more, and I still don’t know how I’m really going to do that yet but we’ll see, I want to experiment and start doing interviews and things on here – representation is what I want. I want everyone to feel represented on this blog, I have friends of different races from different backgrounds and I really want to start doing segments where I interview them and ask them questions that are specific to who they are, if that makes sense. No one I know in real life knows I have this blog because like I’ve said before, I’m very open on here and it’s a space where I can freely express myself and I know I’d stop doing that immediately if I knew there were prying eyes from people in my day to day life that were reading my content. However, my friends are very much supportive of my writing and I’ve already began discussing with them the prospects of creating these posts and they can’t wait to get started – hopefully they should be appearing in your readers very soon!

I’m very grateful to have this little family on here where I can rant about the boy that’s currently breaking my heart or the fact that last week my depression was so bad I wanted to jump out a window, I like hearing your thoughts, opinions and advice and sharing these things with you knowing there’s going to be no judgement from either side, just support and acceptance.

I know I’ve said it before but I really don’t know what I’d do without this blog, it means so much to me and I think I would have officially gone insane now without it, so thank you for allowing me a place to express myself and the messy thoughts and feelings swirling around my head, it really means the most.

All my love,

Chloe .xx

30 thoughts on “my little corner of the internet

  1. Maisie Thompson says:

    I also have anxiety and I know how hard it can be.
    Your post is very relatable for me and I thinks it’s really inspirational that you talk about it openly online!
    I really hope and also believe that your mental health will improve, even on the difficult days just know that it does always get better and you will feel happier! You’re really strong, always remember that:)

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  2. Hannah says:

    I hope things have been going uphill since you wrote this post in terms of your mental health. Know that you are never alone and I am here to listen if you ever need someone. I love how you always sum up exactly what I am feeling, in better words than I could ever hope to write. I love having a blog because it makes me feel like I have a purpose, like I matter, because people (hopefully) like to read what I post and would miss me if I stopped posting (hopefully, again). I feel like I am making an impact on the world, albeit a small one. xx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Thank you so much lovely, I’m always here for you too, your words always mean such a lot to me. I always love reading what you have to say and I would definitely miss you if you stopped posting! You matter and you do make an impact on the world .xx

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  3. seaofwordsx says:

    I loved this post so much as always ❤️ I love all your posts girl. Every time I read your posts it feels like you are here with me and talking to me if that makes sense haha. I really do wish we meet one day. We have so much in common. I can relate to your words. Writing about your feelings and thoughts, may ir be negative or positive is so good. It feels like I can let it go. I’m excited for your new content. You are awesome and you are not alone. If you ever need to talk, I’m here for you beautiful. I love you so much 💕 Be strong xoxo

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  4. crystalsandcurls says:

    CHLOE YOU BLOODY ANGEL. You always summarise how I feel so perfectly; blogging is literally THIS for me. It’s an outlet and a way to look back over my life but without the dramatics of angry tweets or a sad “omg i hate everyone x y and z happened and im so saaad about it” way xxx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Girly YOU are an angel, I’m so glad you can relate. It’s such a release and escape from reality, I don’t know what I’d do without it. It’s also allowed me to meet amazing people like you so it really has been a saviour in so many ways!! xxx

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  5. Karen Wodstrup says:

    Aww Chloe! There’s nothing I want more rn then to give you one big hug and say this; You is kind, You is smart, You is important (if you havn’t seen The Help or read it – then I highly recommend you do, but that’s beside my point) Back on track, it makes me so inspired and happy to hear that you’re so thankful for having this community. In a community we help each other. So if you’re ever in need – DM me and we can chat or have a 3 hour long face time, if that’s what you need. I’m sending every positive vibe possible to you – also remind yourself more often that you’re a really strong person. Like you’ve got this, alright? ❤ xxxx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Ohhh you are an ANGEL. You always know the right things to say. (I haven’t seen / read The Help yet but I’ll definitely have to after that). I agree and this little community we have is so lovely and such an accepting, loving place – made up of lovely people like you !! The same goes for you as well – if you ever need me I’m right here. Your words never fail to put a smile on my face and thank you for saying such lovely things, it means the world to me. All my love to you angel ❤ Thank you so much xxx

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  6. thebreakofdawn says:

    This post is literally the exact reason why I made my blog recently. It’s my space and my space alone to document everything and anything. And looking back on it is something I can’t wait for. I feel like it’ll help my mental health in a way too. Like you said, you get all your thoughts and feelings out into your blog and as a result you’re no longer bottling them up inside❤ Great post…SO relatable, and I really hope your mental health gets back to a better place. Xx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      I’m so glad !! It’s such an escape from everything and I’m so glad we have things like this available to us because like I said, I’d have no idea what I’d do if I didn’t have my little space on here. It has really helped my mental health and I am sure it will help yours too, it really is such a great release. Thank you so much lovely❤ xx

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  7. Kathryn says:

    Oh Chloe, dear. I am so glad you have created this blog, and every time I read your posts, I always think in a different way, in a more beautiful way. Thank you for everything you do here and I’m sure you are just as lovely as a person in real life, as you are here.
    I can relate though, sometimes I write on my blog just to remember that I do have a personality and that I can get my feelings and opinions out somewhere, without any regrets.
    I’m sending much love and internet hugs, dear xx

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  8. priya says:

    I appreciate your little corner of the internet so much Chloe. I love how much you talk about the effect it has on you, your life and your mental health as well, but I hope you know your words and your space have made a definite impact in my life too, as I’m sure a ton of your other readers can agree. It’s so beautiful to be able to get this window into your beautiful mind, and you can honestly tell how much of your heart and soul goes into every post you put up here. I can’t wait to see what you have planned! xx

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  9. Brooke@AuChatBleu says:

    I feel the same way about my blog. I always admire your eloquent way of stating your emotions and inner thoughts. Sending love and compassion your way while you go through this tough time regarding mental health ❤️

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  10. questionsfromateenager says:

    I can relate to this so, so much and it pains me to hear that you haven’t been doing so well as of late. Hope that it all will get better again soon! Actually, scratch that – I KNOW IT IN MY HEART that you will get through this. All I can really think to say is that damn, I don’t know what I would have done without your blog. Like, I know it’s maybe a very cliche thing to say, but your words generally do really inspire me and make me think about my own life and struggles. You also instantly made me feel like I could talk to you if I ever needed to, even though we don’t really know each other. I hope you know that if you ever want to talk to an outsider about something, I will gladly be there to listen. I have so much love for you and this space you’ve created for yourself, keep doing what you’re doing and HANG IN THERE. ❤

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      It’s been really getting me down and I feel like I’m running out of options, but every day is a new day to start over so I’m just taking each one as it comes, I know I can beat it. You have no idea how much your words mean to me, I am so so so grateful for them and YOU. You’re amazing!! You can always always talk to me if you ever need and I’m so glad I can make you feel that way, because I’m always here! So much love for you angel, thank you so much ❤xx

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  11. Nicculent says:

    I recently had a mental health relapse too.It sucks, but I promise it gets better.Relapses are like nightmares, they come and terrify us but they go away abruptly sooner than expected.Lovely post, you’re so inspiring xx

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