i do believe your galaxy

Hello my loves,

It’s time for a well overdue emotional post! I haven’t written one of these in what feels like forever now – after only ever putting out whimsical, emotionally thought out pieces of writing for the last couple of years I feel like lately I’ve gone in the complete opposite direction and I need to come back to my roots a bit, because I miss it.

I wrote this post a while ago now and it’s been sitting in my drafts ever since because I’ve always debated whether to post it or not. It’s something I just kind of spilled out one time without thinking, but every time I read it back now I just internally cringe because I feel like it sounds so dumb, and so I’ve just never shared it.

However, in celebration of the recent release of the masterpiece that is Map of the Soul: 7 and the fact that an emotional post like this is well overdue, I feel like now may be the right time to post it. It is very emotional and sappy and you probably will end up thinking Chloe you literally sound insane but hey ho, you gotta work with what you got. I’m fully aware this post makes me sound crazy and most of you will have no idea what the hell I’m rambling on about but nevertheless, I hope you enjoy – any excuse to talk about my favourite people…

If your question is Chloe, are you an absolute emotional wreck lately? Then the answer is yes, yes I am.

If you’ve read this post then you’ll know what I’m talking about – but lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with emotion and I’m not entirely sure why. I’m an emotional and sensitive person anyway, but lately it just feels like the slightest thing is going to make me cry – not out of sadness and despair, but out of…emotion. Just pure emotion and feeling. Maybe this is what the thrill of being alive feels like.

I feel like I’ve been writing a lot more music-related posts recently – music is always prominent in my life but lately I feel like I’ve been talking about it a lot more than I usually do – incorporating it into every post and telling the story I have for every song. I was sat at my desk today writing and I had my Kpop playlist (really, what else were you expecting) on shuffle in the background. Normally I only listen to specific Kpop if I’m choosing it myself, but as I was writing away I just let the full playlist play out in the background and I ended up hearing a lot of songs that I hadn’t heard in a long time, which was nice. I also ended up hearing songs which I’d listened to once, decided I’d liked, added to the playlist and then had never listened to again.

Magic Shop, by BTS, was one of them.

I knew it was them as soon as the song came on, of course. Magic Shop is a song that as a BTS fan you’re never allowed to forget exists, yet I never listen to it anyway. I don’t know why, it’s not that I don’t like it, I just choose not to listen to it – like I said, I probably listened to it once a long time ago, thought it sounded good and then added it to the playlist, allowing it to be forgotten amongst all the other BTS songs I choose to listen to instead of that one.

What I’m about to (try) and explain is probably not going to make a lot of sense as it’s hard for me to put into words, but I’ll try my best anyway. About halfway through the first verse I knew the song was Magic Shop even though there was no way I would’ve known this as I don’t remember anything about the song or what it sounded like – like I said, I probably listened to it once a year ago and then never again. I started feeling overwhelmed with this love and emotion and I wasn’t even sure where it was coming from because the song is in Korean and I can understand none of it. I said this before a long time ago in a post I wrote as I was first getting into Kpop, but the inability to understand the lyrics of a Kpop song allows you to simply just feel it instead because you can do nothing else, and when you still fall in love with a song and it has a profound effect on you even though you can’t understand the context or any of the words that are being sang in it, that’s really something.

The only thing I knew about Magic Shop was that it was about fans, I’d read somewhere before that the Magic Shop is an imaginary place BTS created for fans in a “when you’re down, enter the Magic Shop and we’ll meet and be there for you” kind of way – a place we can go to in our minds to be with them when we need them most.

So anyway, I was having all of these thoughts in a matter of seconds as the song hadn’t been on for very long at this point, yet I felt like I wanted to cry anyway even though it’d literally only just came on shuffle 10 seconds ago – it had caught my attention and stopped me from what I was doing – I literally stopped writing and just sat there to listen.

There’s a line in the second verse where Namjoon says (in English) I do believe your galaxy and after this line I just began to cry. Why was I crying? I have no idea. I was so overcome with love and emotion that I just…started to cry. I feel like right now my feelings and emotions are so delicate and sensitive that I’m just crying at life in general, because the beauty of life is so wonderful and I just want to cry about it. As I said, I feel like I could cry at every little thing at any moment, I feel like crying is a sign you’re very much alive and God do I feel alive. Crying is a sign of life and lately I’m discovering that there’s a lot of life in me, even though for a very long time I didn’t think so.

So yes, the line is:

난 여기 있었고
니가 내게 다가와준 거야
I do believe your galaxy

Which translates as:

I was here
You made your way to me

I do believe your galaxy

And I was just…crying. Crying at the beauty of it because I just felt so overcome with love and emotion in that moment. I’m still crying now as I’m having to type the lyrics out. Life and the people in it are so beautiful sometimes that the only thing you can do is cry, and I’ve been doing a lot of crying lately – crying because I appreciate the beauty of life.

The line “I do believe your galaxy” comes from Namjoon himself (as you know, BTS write their own songs) as it’s a motif throughout a lot of his creative process – he’s spoken a lot over the years about the idea that everyone has their own galaxy inside of them, though not everyone discovers it.

For me though, the line relates more to a tweet that he posted back in 2016 where he said “I believe in your galaxy, Army!”. When I read this tweet, in my head I can hear him shouting the words to a sea of thousands of people and that in itself brings tears to my eyes. I really wish you guys could see me right now because I’m an emotional mess.

Some of you may be thinking this is ridiculous and far fetched and actually, I don’t disagree. It’s very easy within the industry (whether it’s actors, singers, dancers, artists, performers, writers etc.) to believe that you know someone. It’s very easy to idolise people and believe you’re in love with them, that you’d die for them, do anything for them, love and support them until your last day on this Earth. It’s all too easy to do, because we as people need something to hold on to – we need that hope, we need that positivity and to believe in better things, and that’s what a lot of these famous people are for ordinary people like us – they’re an escape.

A lot of people struggle to understand what makes BTS so different – how did they get so successful? How are they on this incomprehensible level of fame that the world simply just hasn’t seen before?

It’s because they’re telling the truth.

It’s way, way too easy these days for famous people – let’s say artists for a better understanding – to say that they love their fans. To say that they wouldn’t be here today without them and yada yada yada. It’s easy, right? All too easy. It’s just simple fan service. People keep listening to their songs and buying their records and merchandise, people keep sticking their posters on their walls and promoting their work, buying their concert tickets under the impression of oh they love us, they love us!

But the difference with BTS is, they mean it.

And that’s not to say that other people don’t. It’s just to say that BTS really, really do.

Call me ridiculous because again, I don’t know them personally and I never will, but I do know what I’m talking about. BTS are the epitome of selfless. The things they do, they do for us, they don’t do it for the money or the fame, the recognition, the luxuries that come with it, they do it for us. Doesn’t mean to say they’re then hypocritical for enjoying the luxuries that come with that lifestyle because, what reason do they have not to? They’ve earned it. I’d very much even go as far to say that they do it more for us than they do for themselves. Everything they do, they do to make us happy, they make records for us, they put on shows for us, they rehearse and rehearse until they’re physically ill for us, they scrutinise every single detail about themselves and the work that they’re putting out for us. They want to get it right, they want to give us nothing but perfection because they believe we deserve nothing less from them.

I’m not saying it’s a good thing – it’s not a good thing for them to scrutinise every detail of their work until they go insane and start feeling like they’re not good enough. It’s a battle people have had with them more than once because they don’t need to strive for this level of perfection, because perfection doesn’t exist and we’d love and support them regardless of anything. Perfection doesn’t exist, but they damn well try to strive for it anyway.

I’m going off on a tangent, but what I’m basically saying is, they love us. They really, really love us. Like truly, they do, but because this level of humanity is basically unheard of within the industry these days, it’s hard for people to believe it and therefore not everyone buys it, and I get that – it makes sense. However, people need to start waking up.

So anyway, when I hear a song like Magic Shop, which was written for fans as a way of saying hey, when you’re struggling, enter the Magic Shop and we’ll meet you there and we can all be together and be happy again, it tears at my heart. When I hear Kim Namjoon, an incredibly intelligent and deserving man, the leader of BTS and a shoulder that all of us very much lean on, saying hey, I do believe your galaxy, it makes me cry.

I’m 22 and I believe it, there are also 12 year olds who believe it and there are also 42 year olds with children of their own who believe it. And why? Because it’s true. 

Someone said the other day that because BTS are such good people, they don’t feel bad throwing whatever money they have at them because they want them to take it, they want them to be rich rich, and this person hit the nail on the head.

It’s not about the money, which I guess is ironic in itself, but the context of the sentence describes the situation perfectly. You just want them to have everything you have – what’s mine is yours – please take it. You want them to have everything good in the world, you just want them to live the happiest, most luxurious, expensive life possible. Buying a £20,000 suit? Do it. Wear it. Wear it once and then never again if it makes you happy. Do whatever the hell you want with your money because you deserve it and even though you don’t need any more of it, take mine anyway because I want you to have it. They’re literally billionaires, they don’t need money, they don’t have to work a day again in their lives if they don’t want to, but we want them to have our money anyway because they deserve it.

Anyway, I keep going off on a tangent which was not the point of this post (but what did you expect, it’s me we’re talking about here). The point of this post was to say that I’m an emotional wreck and BTS love us so much and I believe them and I love them so much too and I know that when they say they believe in us they mean it because we believe in them and we always will and it’s going to be a mutual support system between us and them for life. Even if tomorrow they decide they want to disband and never make another song again in their lifetime, that’s okay and nothing will change. We loved each other and we’ll still always love each other and we’ll cherish every moment we had together because it was so special, it’s true and honest love between us and them because it’s real. 

I know I sound crazy and I know I’m a person prone to getting all too caught up in these types of things but like I said, I know what I’m saying. As with everything in life, you’ll have people that sit there and tell you you’re deluded because they’re just famous people that want money and don’t care about you but the difference is that this time, they actually do. Are they perfect? No. Are they superhuman? No. But we know that already, it’s not news to us. They’re people just like you and I and guess what? They also care and want better things too, just like you and I. It’s just on a much, much, bigger scale. Everything is heightened. Like I said, the world has never seen this level of fame before, though I know fame is the wrong word to describe it – honestly, I don’t think there’s been a word created yet in order to describe what this is. I don’t believe anyone really knows. Maybe we never will, we’re literally watching history unfold before our very eyes.

Anyway – Magic Shop – I do believe your galaxy too, Kim Namjoon. I believe in yours Min Yoongi and yours Jung Hoseok and yours Kim Seokjin and yours Park Jimin and yours Kim Taehyung and yours Jeon Jungkook.

And I believe in yours too. I do believe your galaxy. I believe it, and I mean it, just like they do. That’s why it affects me so much. That’s why one line in English made me start bawling like a baby and now I’m here writing this trying to explain to you emotions that I’m not really sure I have sufficient words to describe.

I’ll post the English translation of the lyrics here, which I don’t like because translations are never as good as the real thing since words get lost and they don’t capture the feeling as perfectly as the original, however, the lyrics are still beautiful anyway, regardless. Here they are.

I know that you’re hesitating because even if you tell the truth
In the end it’ll all come back as scars
I won’t say cliche things like “find strength”
I will let you hear my story, let you hear it

What did I say?
I said you’d win, didn’t I?
I couldn’t believe it (really)
Could I win it?
This miracle that isn’t a miracle
Did we make it?

(No) I was here
You were the one that made your way to me
I do believe your galaxy
I want to listen to your melody
The stars in your Milky Way
How will they appear in your sky?
At the end of my despair
You’re my last reason
For me who was standing at the edge of a cliff

Live

On days I hate being myself, when I just want to disappear forever
Let’s make a door in your heart
If you open that door and go inside
This place will await you
It’s okay to believe, it’ll comfort you, this Magic Shop

While drinking a glass of hot tea
And looking up at the Milky Way
You’ll be okay, oh, this here is the Magic Shop

So show me (I’ll show you)
So show me (I’ll show you)
So show me (I’ll show you)
Show you, show you

Like a rose when blooming
Like cherry blossoms when being scattered in the wind
Like morning glory when fading
Like that beautiful moment
I always wanted to be the best
So I was impatient and always restless
Comparing myself with others became my daily life
My greed that was my weapon suffocated me and became a leash

But looking back on it now, truthfully
I don’t think I wanted to be the best
I wanted to become your comfort and move your heart
I want to take away your sadness and pain

Would you believe me if I said that I was scared of everything too?
All the sincerity, the remaining time
All of the answers are in this place you found
In your Milky Way, inside your heart

You gave me the best of me
So you’ll give you the best of you
You found me, you knew me
You gave me the best of me
So you’ll give you the best of you
You’ll find it, the galaxy inside you

So show me (I’ll show you)
So show me (I’ll show you)
So show me (I’ll show you)
Show you, show you

All my love,

Chloe .xx

14 thoughts on “i do believe your galaxy

  1. seaofwordsx says:

    Wow such a beautiful and emotional post! I’m also a highly sensitive person and can understand you so much beautiful 💖 It’s beautiful to cry because of the beauty of life. I will listen to that song. It’s true that there are not many artists who really genuinely care about their fans. It’s beautiful what BTS does. You are also such a beautiful person Chloe. I agree that we all have our galaxy in ourselves.

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  2. Anandi Roy says:

    I liked this post a lot because I can relate to what you are trying to describe here. For the longest time ever I’ve treated BTS as just another trend and as a rule I don’t follow trends. But this post has been illuminating even though I don’t agree with all of it.

    But more than all of this is the line of this song ‘ I believe in your galaxy ‘. I’ve never heard a BTS song, but this line right here is so powerful. I think everybody has a galaxy inside of them, a whole universe of their own making. And to tell someone that you believe in their galaxy is like telling them that you believe in what they think and their dreams and that you believe that they can make their dreams real. Imagine someone else believing in you so much. I want to thank you for these words, which I would otherwise never have encountered.

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Comments like this always mean a lot to me, I’m glad that this post could do that for you! Thank you so much for taking the time out to read it and comment, I feel like in some way the purpose of most of my posts is to elicit that underlying understanding in people regarding the things I talk about, so I’m glad my words had the ability to do that and I’m glad I could share it with you ✨ Thank you so much.

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  3. Ash Ronnel says:

    “allows you to simply just feel it instead because you can do nothing else, and when you still fall in love with a song and it has a profound effect on you even though you can’t understand the context or any of the words that are being sang in it, that’s really something” << wow. that's so, so beautiful, Chloe!! 🥺 i'd never thought about k-pop in that way before, but your post really opened my eyes about BTS and their music. now I need to listen to their songs!! …

    i just played "Magic Shop" and you're right about the whole *feeling* of it! it's so magical and i absolutely love the message behind the lyrics. i love how you convey your words, your passion for BTS's music really shines through in such a beautiful way!

    loved reading this, hope you're doing well ❤ ❤

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  4. Karen Wodstrup says:

    I love everything about this post! The lines, the rhythm, the everything!! I truly admire your honesty and courage to uploade a post that’s very vulnerable. I’ve always loved your blog posts and I always will ❤ ❤ Karen xo

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