2 weeks with no phone during self-isolation

Hello my loves,

Last Sunday afternoon (5th), my phone decided to randomly break. For no reason at all. It just decided hey, the world is going to ruin right now and I think I might join it! And then there I was, with no phone.

I rang my provider and they came to collect it on Tuesday so it could go in for repair, but they said that due to the current circumstances it would take 2 weeks before I’d get it back. I’m not someone who uses my phone a lot anyway (as you will know if you’ve ever messaged me, it takes at least 5-10 working days to get a response each time) so this wasn’t the end of the world, and me being the optimist I am (sarcasm) I realised that this would actually make a good blog post once I got over the annoyance of my phone actually breaking, and why these things always seem to happen to me.Β Though of course I am very aware there are much bigger and more important problems and things going on in the world right now.

Which brings me onto the actual point of this post – self isolation and no communication. Your phone is basically your window to the world – your access to everyone and everything – like I said, I don’t use my phone a whole lot anyway (much to everyone else’s annoyance) and so normally this wouldn’t be a problem for me…if this was normal life and I was still able to be out and about in the world talking to people, but I’m not. I haven’t left my house for…3 weeks now? And no one knows when this lockdown will end, so to then have my phone – my little access to the rest of the world and the people in it – taken away from me for 2 weeks…it’s affecting me more than it usually would. It starts making me feel incredibly claustrophobic and panicky when I sit here thinking about it for too long, about the fact that we’re all so shut off (or at least I feel) from the rest of the world and I don’t know when I’m going to see people again or be able to drive to work listening to my favourite Kpop playlist again or do anything remotely normal again, it’s all so uncertain and when I lie in bed at night and my mind starts to wander, I can feel myself bringing on a panic attack, because I become short of breath and I feel so trapped and claustrophobic between these four walls and it all gets too much.

So I’m just trying to breathe. It’s typical that the only time I actually feel like IΒ needΒ my phone…it breaks and I have to do without it for two weeks. There’s a knot in my stomach right now just typing all of this out, and I can feel myself getting panicky already. I don’t know why. I just miss people and I miss normal life, I’m not bored in isolation or anything, I’m reading all day and playing Animal Crossing, writing blog posts etc. and it’s great, but I miss people, I miss having face-to-face conversations and laughing and joking about things. I miss real life, not this weird limbo that we’re all in right now. I know it’s for the best, I know that it’s what we all have to do and we’re lucky that we can be safe in our homes, but I miss life. I feel like life isn’t happening anymore, we’re all just at a standstill and I just really, really want my phone back so I can feel at least a little bit more connected to the rest of the world again.

Don’t get me wrong – I still have the internet, I still have my laptop, I can still do pretty much all of the same things I can do on my phone on here…but it’s not exactly the same. I’m sure you all know what I mean. I just feel a bit panicky right now and I wish I didn’t because I don’t necessarily think there’s any reason for me to be, but the knot in my stomach won’t go. Who knew I’d ever care about my phone this much, I barely even use it !!

If you’re wondering what was wrong with it, it randomly just started overheating to the point of like…burning, and then it’d freeze me out and give me the whole “iPhone needs to cool down before you can use it” malarky, but there was nothing that should’ve been making it heat up like that and it just doing started doing it completely randomly by itself, and then I couldn’t use it. Hooray.

I really hope this post doesn’t sound whiney and like a first world problems thing, I don’t care about my phone and it’s not about the fact that it’s broken, it’s just the fact that it’s another form of communication that’s been taken away from me during these uncertain times and my anxiety !! will !! not !! stop !! and I really don’t know why, because I’m fine, but there’s a knot in my stomach that won’t go away and I’m just wishing to have my phone back because I want to feel more connected to everyone again and less trapped and claustrophobic-y in this strange and unfamiliar world we’re living in right now.

As always I hope you’re all staying safe right now loves and I’m thinking of all of you πŸ’ž If you need me you know where I am.

All my love,

Chloe .xx

49 thoughts on “2 weeks with no phone during self-isolation

  1. Geri Lawhon says:

    My fiance and I have a deal when we go out with other couples for diner. If you use your phone before the check is paid, you pay for all the meal at the table. It is great as everyone is talking and communicating instead of pushing buttons. Thanks for the post.

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  2. Shreya says:

    You have your way with words! I have a very different experience with regard to this. 2 years ago, I was addicted to my phone. I gave it up to focus on my academics. Now, I’ve taken my phone back and I don’t really pay attention to it ! It’s really weird, how I’ve weaned myself from phone-addiction without knowing myself xD Love the way you write πŸ™‚ I’ve dropped a follow ❀
    ~ Shreya| https://shreyarantswithpurpose.wordpress.com/

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  3. BriN says:

    Wait why doesn’t my phone overheat for 2 weeks😭😭 I’ve been begginggg myself to stop using my phone everyday and …? well, I keep begging.πŸ™„
    And wow. You dont really use your phone muchπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί But I’m sure you got your phone back by now so yay😁

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Hahaha! Have you tried switching it off, leaving it in a drawer or something somewhere? That always works for me! Yes I do have my phone back now hehe, I don’t even know why I was so bothered about getting it back in the first place since I haven’t really been using it! X

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      • BriN says:

        Haha I wondered the same as wellπŸ˜‚βœŒ But I suppose sometimes just knowing that it’s there, can be comforting? Sometimes I always keep the phone with me when its dark even when it’s probably switched offπŸ˜‚

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  4. Hazel @ Places and Peonies says:

    My phone is constantly in my hand, if this happened to me I would flip out! Plus I live states away from my family so it’s our only form of communication! I do get what you mean about missing the normalcy of life and wondering when you’ll be able to do those “usual” things again. I’ve had to cancel several trips this year after putting my foot down and telling my husband I’m GOING on vacation. So I feel like he and the universe are secretly against me. I do hope this whole thing is over soon, as unlikely as it looks, but I’m still holding on to hope!

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Oh my goodness that would be a nightmare! Especially when it’s what you use to communicate with your family, luckily that’s not the case for me but I feel you. We’ve had to cancel our vacation this year too which I’m super sad about because I was really looking forward to it, but at the same time I understand that we have to do these things in order to stay safe and there’ll always be other times that we can go instead (i.e. next year). I hope this is all over soon too, it’s crazy how everything went from 0-100 so fast!

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  5. chloeburford says:

    Oh my gosh, I don’t think I could live without my phone which is quite sad really but I always have my phone by my side. I think it just a generation thing, everyone is glued to their phones. But now more than ever I would feel lost without mine, so I really hope it gets fixed soon and you find some positivity from not having your phone, like learning a new hobby or writing more content. I hope you are staying safe xxx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      I agree, I think it’s just the way we’ve been raised, which is kind of scary when you think about it! They gave me a new phone and I’ve had it back for a couple weeks now so panic over haha, hope you’re staying safe and well lovely πŸ’žxxx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      That’s true! I got it back a couple weeks ago and I don’t even know why I was so bothered about not having it in the first place, I’ve barely been using it!! xx

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  6. seaofwordsx says:

    I understand you so much lovely πŸ’– I feel the same way. I miss real life too and I miss seeing my friends and family. Our phone is our connection now to the real world. I love communicating with my loved ones there. I also did videocalling and it was so nice. I use my phone more than my laptop too because it’s just easier. I feel your anxiety. It goes up and down by me. I’m happy I’m enjoying myself with enjoying the sunshine in my garden, taking walks in the park, reading, writing and doing a yoga challenge because it gives me some structure in these strange times. I hope you will get your phone soon. I’m here for you πŸ’– Loveeeee you xxxx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      You’re so right, very strange now how our phone is literally the only connection to the outside world we have. God bless the internet too! Though I’m so glad to hear you’re still keeping yourself busy and doing nice things during these uncertain times, I know they can be scary. Here for you too if you need me πŸ’ž love you more !! xxx

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  7. Keira says:

    Hello! Omg what a terrible time for your phone to break! Also I don’t think you sound whiney at all, I would feel the same way probably worse bc I am addicted to my phone. Using it tbh is the way I relax. Also, idk if this is helpful but when my phone was out for a while I used a google voice number so people could still text and call. But yeah I get that it’s not exactly the same as having a phone. The anxiety is real :/ I get the same thing, the knot in my stomach when I get anxious. It’s such a physical thing and it feels like there’s nothing I can do to fix it other than just waiting for it to go away. It will all be okay!! You can always reach out to me if you need to ❀

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Hi lovely! Thank you for reading πŸ’™ For some reason I never saw this comment so apologies for not replying sooner! I got my phone back but I don’t even know why I was so anxious about not having it in the first place since I haven’t really even been using it! The Google voice number is such a good idea though, will keep that in mind if (hopefully not) something like this happens again! Hope you’re doing well sweet and thank you for being so kindπŸ’žxx

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  8. Cordelia. says:

    This is definitely a first world problem but a problem nonetheless. We’re all so used to our phones whether or not we use it regularly, and having that form of communication taken from you is disconcerting! At least we’d like to option ya know! I hope you’ll do alright and maybe see this as your little meditation retreat! Drink some tea and have a breather on all the bad news for a while, it is exhausting and demoralizing and this is a great excuse to just be in your own bubble for awhile!

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Hahaha very true, I do enjoy being in my own bubble (probably too much sometimes). Everyone loves a good excuse to spend time on themselves! Thank you for listening to me ramble, I hope you’re doing well xx

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  9. heatherpfeifle says:

    Friend, I completely understand the anxiety! And it sucks! My stomach has spent so much time in a knot lately. Every time I have to go to the store to get food for the kids, I worry I’m bringing β€œit” back home with me. 😳
    My kids’ dance recital has already been rescheduled once, and I worry they will have to move it again or cancel it all together. 😫
    Everyone here in the states is sharing about how they got their government economic relief check deposited in their banks already, and I haven’t yet, so of course I am certain that I’m the one adult in the whole country who won’t get one. πŸ™„
    The list goes on, lol. I get you. And just like you, I worry about sounding like I’m whiny… but anxiety is what it is, and honestly I always feel a little bit better if I can just talk through the random crazy things going through my head. It doesn’t make the anxiety go away completely, but it makes it settle down just a little.
    So please share! We are here to listen and encourage! You hang in there! πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      You always know the right thing to say, I swear if there’s anyone that can make me feel less alone in what I’m feeling it’s you, so thank you for that – though I’m sorry to here you’re struggling too – this situation really sucks. Thank you for your kind words as always and I hope you’re staying safe and well nonetheless πŸ’™ here if you need me xxx

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  10. arshia says:

    I get what you’re talking about aah. Even if I don’t use my phone, not having it on my person does make me panic quite a bit. But I’m sure you’ll do better than just fine, everything can be an opportunity to do something you haven’t thought of before.
    Hope you’re safe and sound in these times πŸ™‚

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  11. Hannah says:

    I personally feel like this would be the best time for my phone to break (if I was self-isolating at home and not working). The only reason I have a phone is so that I can access the internet and contact friends and family when I am out and about, especially in the case of an emergency. If I am at home, I just use my laptop for streaming movies and TV shows and messaging friends (although admittedly you need your mobile to access whatsapp web). But I guess it depends how you use your phone and your laptop. xx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      I don’t really watch or stream anything on my laptop so I guess in that sense I have no use for it which made me feel even more cut off, ’cause it wasn’t even like I was actually accessing the internet…if that makes sense. My phone’s back now anyway so all is resolved. Hope you’re staying safe & well Hannah xxx

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  12. Kitty Jade says:

    Great post and very thoughtful! I don’t use my phone much at all, maybe pick it up three times a week? My friends are probably thinking ‘where on earth has she gone’. Being without your phone is for the better, in some ways. I don’t even need it because I have my laptop! And I’m not going out, so no need to call someone in an emergency.
    Hope you’re keeping well πŸ™‚
    Erin x

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Thank you! It’s rarely something I use too since no one can ever get hold of me hahaha but the time I feel like I actually need it, this happens! I have it back now anyway so all’s resolved. Thank you for reading and hope you’re staying safe & well! xxx

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      • Kitty Jade says:

        You’re welcome, Chloe! My friends and I are hardly ever on our phones at the same time, so there’s no-one to talk to. I don’t use my phone for blogging so I could definitely go without it for a while if I wanted. But now, more than ever, it’s important to be connected πŸ™‚

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  13. priya says:

    Oh wow, how good’s timing hey? What a shitty time to be without a phone! I genuinely don’t know what I’d do…especially now when my iPhone usage has gone up so much purely because like you said, it’s one of the only windows to the outside world I have!

    I 100% know what you mean when you distinguish between your phone and your laptop – I don’t know if this makes sense but in my head my phone is the social outlet, and my laptop is reserved for more productive things that lean more towards work like blogging, emails, Pinterest (if that counts) and other stuff? Plus it genuinely feels a lot more social replying to texts and FaceBook messages on your phone than on a desktop haha.

    Sympathizing with you heaps gal but also hoping the removed distraction relaxes you a little bit – I’ve been reading ten times more than I usually would, which has been amazing and somehow even finding time to meditate which is something I never would have done outside the current circumstances, so you never know!!

    Sending love ya way xx

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      Oooh my goodness tell me about it hahaha, that’s just my life summed up right there !! But I guess it could always be worse…though do I wanna jinx myself by saying that hahaha.

      Definitely agree with you on the phone and laptop thing, even though you can still kind of do the same “social” things on your laptop it’s definitely not as quick and accessible as it is on your phone, luckily I got my phone back on Wednesday because they gave me a new device rather than fixing the old one, they said it couldn’t be repaired apparently!

      Thank you for your lovely words as always, I’ve been reading double the amount I usually would too right now to the point I’ve actually given myself eye strain and so I’m having to ease off a bit hahaha, great things just keep rolling my way !! Definitely might try meditating though, I feel like that’s exactly what I need right now!

      Sending you love right back xxx

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  14. 50shad3s0fjay says:

    I love how you thought about how you’d get a blog post out of this situation, my phone broke once and I wrote a joke post ‘How To Survive A Broken Phone’, my dad fully took the mick out of me, I was like ITS A JOKE. haha!

    Anyway, I know how tough it must seem right now, honestly, even in day to day normal life a broken phone is tough, but right now, it’s the last thing you want. It’s the form of communication that makes life feel bearable right now, and a laptop is not the same. You don’t just grab your laptop and text your friends, you can still message them, but over the phone is just so much better…

    Hopefully, it won’t be too long until you have your phone back again & even more so,hopefully it won’t be too long until we can go out again.

    It’s such a difficult time at the moment and you have every right to feel the way that you do, but just remember this isn’t forever.

    There are so many positives to look forward to in this scenario, and to take from this time. & better days are coming.

    Every sleep is one sleep closer to you having your phone back, and being able to go out again.

    Make the most of this time to relax, maybe do some meditation to calm your anxiety, go for walks, write write write. Whatever makes you feel better ❀

    This is an opportunity to heal and grow, you got this ❀

    Stay safe hun, and I'm always here if you need to talk! ❀

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    • Chloe Luna says:

      HAHAHA. Luckily for me my phone definitely isn’t something I usually rely on but the one time I feel like I actually need it…this happens !! That’s my life summed up right there!

      I got it back on Wednesday which surprised me since they said two weeks, but apparently it didn’t take as long because they gave me a new device rather than fixing the old one because they said it was faulty so, there we go! Thank you so much for listening to be ramble and for the great advice and lovely words, it’s always so appreciated. You’re an angel !! So much love for you πŸ’ž hope you’re staying safe and well lovely xxx

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      • 50shad3s0fjay says:

        Oh no! Bless you hun! I definitely rely on my phone A LOT! Especially now, like you say, I think everyone probably is right now!

        Omg yay I’m so happy for you hun!! That’s amazing 😍😍😍 glad you got it back and a new device? That’s pretty cool right!? Of course beauty!!! Sending so much love to you hun! I hope you are too ❀️❀️ Xxx

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