you are waiting for yourself

I wanna talk about something I posted in May of last year, though I think I actually wrote it some time during 2016. I wrote a lot of posts talking about the same kind of thing around that time but this was the first one that came to mind when I thought about this so … Continue reading you are waiting for yourself



He said, "What are you afraid of?", I swallow, loud enough that his eyes are directed to the movement in my throat. He looks at me, almost agaze, his eyes following down. Tracing the lines of my collarbone, down. His eyes lingering a few moments longer on the pulse beating out of my chest. I … Continue reading 11:34pm


9:50pm Iโ€™m 19. Iโ€™m sat in the kitchen at the table listening to John Mayer belt out Edge of Desire and Iโ€™m wondering if Iโ€™ll remember this in 10 years time when Iโ€™m 29 and doing all the things adults are supposed to. I donโ€™t feel like an adult, I certainly donโ€™t want to be … Continue reading 07/02/17


17/09/18 Last night I wasโ€ฆI donโ€™t even know what happened. Like I mentioned in this post, I donโ€™t know how I keep getting into these situations, itโ€™s like I just open my eyes and suddenly everything is unfolding in front of me. I was listening to Clearly by Grace Vanderwaal, which is one of the … Continue reading realise