sour

Anxiety, anxiety, started following me. To put it lightly. It’s driving me crazy. Ever since this anxiety trip it’s been a constant battle, I’ve lost myself a lot and ever since it’s just been a battle of fighting to try and get myself back and more importantly, to stay there. I don’t feel very stable. …

rain running

Walking has become my new saviour. Anxiety has become the prison I find myself trapped in and I’ve been searching for things that allow me to set myself free. I bought Spotify premium and mental health-wise it’s been such a good investment. I use Spotify everyday anyway, but recently I’ve been using it even more …

anxiety trip

14/09/21 I lost my mind last week. Well, I didn’t, but I might as well have done. It felt like I did. It was one of the worst anxiety trips I’ve ever had, and it lasted for essentially an entire week. Normally when I have spells like that they’ll last a few days at a …

earthside

my anxiety has been playing up a lot lately . i’ve decided in order to fix this i should be spending time outdoors . i’ve also been reading conversations with friends by sally rooney and have noticed my inner monologue change to that of frances and the way that she thinks . or maybe we …

I don’t want the world to see me / iris

- an old post I wrote a long time ago, but one I'm going to share today - not everything is still applicable now, but it was at the time. 16/06/18 I remember being 12 or 13 driving home from somewhere with my family. I was staring out of the window zoning out until the …

into the rush

Lately in life I've noticed that I'm always in a rush. As someone who's always been early / on time for just about any and every event ever, I'm not sure why I'm always running around like I'm in a rush, but I am. It causes me to make silly little mistakes that end up …

a passing thought

drowning

turning sadness into art . turning you into poetry . you should be grateful i write you down . i’m grateful i write at all . when you’re gone all i do is think about you and it hurts me to watch you leave . you left in my rear view mirror and i thought …

waking up slow

Sometimes I get scared of being alone. I love being alone but I don’t like being lonely. Now I don’t like being alone or being lonely. I don’t know why I’m scared of my own company, I guess because it means I have time to sit there and overthink myself into anxiety, which is the …

happiness

Feeling genuinely happy has been a pretty much foreign concept to me for…ever. Which sounds very dramatic but in the grand scheme of things I can’t really remember points in my life where I’ve felt genuinely happy and content. Of course I’ve had happy times in my life, lots of them and which I’m very …