Dear 2020

Hello my loves, Happy new year !! Sorry I've been a bit MIA over Christmas but everything has been so busy, I have so many wrap up posts that I need to finish up so be expecting a few of those in the coming weeks... I'm not really sure what this post is, I guess I just …

anxiety is ruining my life

Hi loves, Happy December! And welcome to a nice, depressing post to start off Christmas the right way. I'm sorry. Anyway, guess whose head has been a whirring mess lately !! My brain feels like it’s constantly on a rollercoaster that I can’t seem to get off of and it’s so exhausting. Anxiety is doing …

the time of my life fighting dragons with you

I woke up the other morning thinking about how I stood in front of a church full of people talking about satan and the depths of hell when I read out my best friend's eulogy at her funeral. It was an inside joke, and I remember standing there talking about it and wondering if the …

being ill has actually done me good

Hi loves, I feel like I've been a little absent this week, I know it's only Thursday and you probably haven't even noticed since I've still been uploading and stuff, but for about 6 days now I've been really ill. I''m actually very lucky in the sense that I rarely get ill - maybe once …

letting go – a chat about anxiety

Hi loves, This is a long chat I wanted to have with myself, and you reading this, about anxiety. More so, my own, and how I'm dealing with it. It's important to open up, it's important to be honest. I thought I'd tell you what's on my mind. I hope you're all well. Love you …

from now on

11/09/19 this won’t make sense to you, but it does to me Sometimes I think I should start mashing my blog posts into 2. I write sections, excerpts here and there that aren’t enough to warrant a blog post of their own, but that I then don’t know what to do with afterwards. Maybe I …

on my mind

Hi loves, I feel like I need to write a post because…I haven’t written anything in what feels like ages. I’m not sure why. Honestly, I feel like I have nothing to talk about right now, my creativity bubble in the writing department has completely burst. I remember when I first started this blog and …

a spider web and it’s me in the middle

24/12/18 I kind of got into this mindset of realising that some days I do wake up and want to feel utterly horrible. I want to listen to angry music and be rude and ignore everyone and refuse to make eye contact because some days, I need to let this rage out. Once I come …

butterfly fly away

Someone messaged me the other night that I hadn’t spoken to in…a long time. Years. I wanted to see what our last conversation had been before this just to refresh my memory, and I almost wish I hadn’t looked. This is extremely personal, even for me, so I’m not entirely sure why I’m sharing it …

1998 – 2013

The weather has been really beautiful lately, so warm and light with not a single cloud in the sky. It reminds me of that endless, nostalgic Summer I always talk about, because I feel like no matter what, I always go back to it. It’s at the core of everything for me, 2013 changed everything …