vulnerability

Being vulnerable isn't beautiful, it's terrifying. There's always this saying that being vulnerable is a beautiful and brave thing to do. But it's not. I don't feel brave at all. I feel terrified and anxious and like all the air has been sucked out of my lungs and I can't remember the last time I …

forgiveness

There’s so many things that as I’m getting older, I’m learning to forgive myself for. Forgiving is such a graceful act, and I need to give myself more grace. Throughout life I’ve always told myself that everything was my fault, through lack of self love – everything went wrong because of you, this person left …

ramblings – i miss being sad

Hello my loves, I feel as though I've been really distant lately, and I don't like it. I spoke about this in a blog post maybe over a year ago now, but I just feel as though I'm not as here as I'd like to be. I'm still posting every week, but I don't feel like I'm …

coming into your own

I'm really starting to focus on the things that make me feel like myself these days. Not what makes me look the best physically, or what makes me look cool to other people, but myself. Through growth and time, that has become my main priority and the most important thing to me, and I'm embracing …

projecting insecurities

My biggest problem. Something that I constantly work on but cannot seem to fix. In some ways, I don't think I'll ever fix it because I'll always have insecurities, I just need to work on managing them better. Managing my insecurities - another thing I cannot do. In that sense emotionally, I feel like a …

trouble(d)

I sat in my car this morning listening to Trouble by Coldplay, it was rainy and gloomy and I sat there watching the rain fall down my windscreen. Lately I’ve been struggling with progress, I suppose. It’s so easy to feel isolated and get trapped inside your own bubble, inside your own mind. The past …

Chloe

We were watching old videos today. My nan has hundreds of VHS tapes from years and years ago and since it's quarantine, we decided to borrow a video player and play them. I sat with my mum and dad watching them, they were from '94 / 95, and then when I was born ('98) and …

I think I need to challenge myself

There are a lot of things that I don't do because I'm too scared, too anxious, too shy, too worrisome, too this or too that. Not the right fit. Not the right person. Not the right personality. Not the right ambition. I endlessly drive myself crazy thinking of what ifs - what if it goes …

i do believe your galaxy

Hello my loves, It's time for a well overdue emotional post! I haven't written one of these in what feels like forever now - after only ever putting out whimsical, emotionally thought out pieces of writing for the last couple of years I feel like lately I've gone in the complete opposite direction and I …

i don’t know about you, but i’m feeling…

Hi loves, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! Well, it was on Saturday (25th) so of course, it's not my birthday anymore, and as you can probably guess by the title of this post, I turned... that's right 22. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't been waiting since 2012 in order to use that line. This …