the time of my life fighting dragons with you

I woke up the other morning thinking about how I stood in front of a church full of people talking about satan and the depths of hell when I read out my best friend's eulogy at her funeral. It was an inside joke, and I remember standing there talking about it and wondering if the …

holding on

I read something the other day that said in order to learn new things you have to wipe your memory, forget what you already know and take yourself right back to the start as if you're a beginner. I think I need to do that with life. I realised last night (I say last night, …

you have one new message (1)

Sometimes I have to unfollow people on social media because we don't speak anymore but I still care about them, and seeing their face on my timeline hurts. I wish they knew it wasn't personal, and that they didn't do anything wrong. It's not because I don't like them anymore, or even necessarily that I don't …

from now on

11/09/19 this won’t make sense to you, but it does to me Sometimes I think I should start mashing my blog posts into 2. I write sections, excerpts here and there that aren’t enough to warrant a blog post of their own, but that I then don’t know what to do with afterwards. Maybe I …

on my mind

Hi loves, I feel like I need to write a post because…I haven’t written anything in what feels like ages. I’m not sure why. Honestly, I feel like I have nothing to talk about right now, my creativity bubble in the writing department has completely burst. I remember when I first started this blog and …

1998 – 2013

The weather has been really beautiful lately, so warm and light with not a single cloud in the sky. It reminds me of that endless, nostalgic Summer I always talk about, because I feel like no matter what, I always go back to it. It’s at the core of everything for me, 2013 changed everything …

life is exhausting

Life is so exhausting. Like honestly, exhausting. Everything is an effort, everything overwhelms me, life overwhelms me to the point I struggle to function. I’m so tired. I have no energy, and I’m so very tired. My mental health is really going down the drain at the minute. I don’t even have the energy to …

2:37am

Last night I stumbled across this piece of paper crumpled in the bottom of a clothing drawer and thought I'd share. I was 17. ✨ 02/04/15 I need to accept myself. I need to stop comparing myself to everyone else. Quit that. I need to stop second guessing everything I do, I end up just …

you are waiting for yourself

I wanna talk about something I posted in May of last year, though I think I actually wrote it some time during 2016. I wrote a lot of posts talking about the same kind of thing around that time but this was the first one that came to mind when I thought about this so …

07/02/17

9:50pm I’m 19. I’m sat in the kitchen at the table listening to John Mayer belt out Edge of Desire and I’m wondering if I’ll remember this in 10 years time when I’m 29 and doing all the things adults are supposed to. I don’t feel like an adult, I certainly don’t want to be …