you’re gonna live forever in me

i promise. i'm sitting there and you're like a child to me now, this angel of a girl, my babylove, and i want to hold you and cuddle you and look after you and protect you from everything in the entire world. i can't, of course, i couldn't, i didn't, that's why i'm here and …

drowning

turning sadness into art . turning you into poetry . you should be grateful i write you down . i’m grateful i write at all . when you’re gone all i do is think about you and it hurts me to watch you leave . you left in my rear view mirror and i thought …

butterfly soliloquy

Sometimes I think comfort and home can be present in a person straight away, rather than something you build up to. I read once that after the initial butterflies die down you don't get them anymore, because what you get instead is comfort and familiarity because this person is your home and they never make …

talk fast, romance

Drove to work listening to channel orange today. The CD has been displayed on my shelf ever since I bought it years ago and today I decided I needed it. The sun was shining and the sky was clear blue, which is everything I think about when I think of channel orange – that’s the …

cliff jumping

If I was to hypothetically stand on this cliff would you stand with me, and if I was to hypothetically jump off it, would you jump too? Would you drive with me to the coast, my hair’s falling down my back and it’s as messy as my mind, I have no makeup on because you …

wings

we're driving down the highway and you're playing wings because i said i liked birdy and you said you did too. i'm everywhere and nowhere all at once. i miss you when you're here and i miss you when you're gone and i don't want you to go and i wonder what you're thinking. i …

waking up slow

Sometimes I get scared of being alone. I love being alone but I don’t like being lonely. Now I don’t like being alone or being lonely. I don’t know why I’m scared of my own company, I guess because it means I have time to sit there and overthink myself into anxiety, which is the …

here // bruises

happy. content. coming to terms with myself. realising i can be loved for who i am. realising i can love myself for who i am. realising i love the person i have become and will continue to grow into. seeing how other people love me allows me to see it in myself. told my mum …

swing

Sometimes you experience things and find yourself making a mental note to remember that moment in time to come, because you know it’s going to be important. The feeling is something you’re going to want to remember, so you tell yourself to take in as much of it as you can, so you can allow …

happiness

Feeling genuinely happy has been a pretty much foreign concept to me for…ever. Which sounds very dramatic but in the grand scheme of things I can’t really remember points in my life where I’ve felt genuinely happy and content. Of course I’ve had happy times in my life, lots of them and which I’m very …