forgiveness

There’s so many things that as I’m getting older, I’m learning to forgive myself for. Forgiving is such a graceful act, and I need to give myself more grace. Throughout life I’ve always told myself that everything was my fault, through lack of self love – everything went wrong because of you, this person left …

2021

Here's some writing / thinking I did this morning. I have blurred some parts out for obvious reasons and yes my writing is incredibly messy. I hope it makes it harder to read. Questions courtesy of We're Not Really Strangers. Here's to 2021.

ramblings – i miss being sad

Hello my loves, I feel as though I've been really distant lately, and I don't like it. I spoke about this in a blog post maybe over a year ago now, but I just feel as though I'm not as here as I'd like to be. I'm still posting every week, but I don't feel like I'm …

coming into your own

I'm really starting to focus on the things that make me feel like myself these days. Not what makes me look the best physically, or what makes me look cool to other people, but myself. Through growth and time, that has become my main priority and the most important thing to me, and I'm embracing …

angel ✨

you don't have wings but you are an angelis what he said to meon a wednesday afternoon in septemberat 5:53i smiled and said no you areyou are an angel to meyou told me about how your day was goingyou told me that you felt freenothing to do and nowhere to besometimes you feel lost, sometimes …

talking to the moon

I lay in bed last night, windows wide open, talking to the moon. I do this often. Everyone believes in something or someone, I believe in the moon and the universe. I ask them questions in hopes they’ll answer. I got a little sad last night, maybe a little angry too. I started to think …

the time of my life fighting dragons with you

I woke up the other morning thinking about how I stood in front of a church full of people talking about satan and the depths of hell when I read out my best friend's eulogy at her funeral. It was an inside joke, and I remember standing there talking about it and wondering if the …

holding on

I read something the other day that said in order to learn new things you have to wipe your memory, forget what you already know and take yourself right back to the start as if you're a beginner. I think I need to do that with life. I realised last night (I say last night, …

you have one new message (1)

Sometimes I have to unfollow people on social media because we don't speak anymore but I still care about them, and seeing their face on my timeline hurts. I wish they knew it wasn't personal, and that they didn't do anything wrong. It's not because I don't like them anymore, or even necessarily that I don't …

from now on

11/09/19 this won’t make sense to you, but it does to me Sometimes I think I should start mashing my blog posts into 2. I write sections, excerpts here and there that aren’t enough to warrant a blog post of their own, but that I then don’t know what to do with afterwards. Maybe I …