ramblings – i miss being sad

Hello my loves, I feel as though I've been really distant lately, and I don't like it. I spoke about this in a blog post maybe over a year ago now, but I just feel as though I'm not as here as I'd like to be. I'm still posting every week, but I don't feel like I'm …

I think I need to challenge myself

There are a lot of things that I don't do because I'm too scared, too anxious, too shy, too worrisome, too this or too that. Not the right fit. Not the right person. Not the right personality. Not the right ambition. I endlessly drive myself crazy thinking of what ifs - what if it goes …

i don’t know about you, but i’m feeling…

Hi loves, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! Well, it was on Saturday (25th) so of course, it's not my birthday anymore, and as you can probably guess by the title of this post, I turned... that's right 22. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't been waiting since 2012 in order to use that line. This …

the anxiety trick

Hi my loves, I'm just going to preface this post by saying that what I'm mentioning here today is really, really important if you suffer from anxiety. I've essentially found something that has really helped me change my mindset when it comes to my anxious thoughts and I think it'll really help you too (I …

anxiety is ruining my life

Hi loves, Happy December! And welcome to a nice, depressing post to start off Christmas the right way. I'm sorry. Anyway, guess whose head has been a whirring mess lately !! My brain feels like it’s constantly on a rollercoaster that I can’t seem to get off of and it’s so exhausting. Anxiety is doing …

you have one new message (1)

Sometimes I have to unfollow people on social media because we don't speak anymore but I still care about them, and seeing their face on my timeline hurts. I wish they knew it wasn't personal, and that they didn't do anything wrong. It's not because I don't like them anymore, or even necessarily that I don't …

letting go – a chat about anxiety

Hi loves, This is a long chat I wanted to have with myself, and you reading this, about anxiety. More so, my own, and how I'm dealing with it. It's important to open up, it's important to be honest. I thought I'd tell you what's on my mind. I hope you're all well. Love you …

from now on

11/09/19 this won’t make sense to you, but it does to me Sometimes I think I should start mashing my blog posts into 2. I write sections, excerpts here and there that aren’t enough to warrant a blog post of their own, but that I then don’t know what to do with afterwards. Maybe I …

on my mind

Hi loves, I feel like I need to write a post because…I haven’t written anything in what feels like ages. I’m not sure why. Honestly, I feel like I have nothing to talk about right now, my creativity bubble in the writing department has completely burst. I remember when I first started this blog and …

a spider web and it’s me in the middle

24/12/18 I kind of got into this mindset of realising that some days I do wake up and want to feel utterly horrible. I want to listen to angry music and be rude and ignore everyone and refuse to make eye contact because some days, I need to let this rage out. Once I come …