well, i'm not. kinda. i had to write this right now. i've been gone for about a year, i know i just disappeared off the face of the earth like it was nothing but i had to. i don't think i'd have survived otherwise. i keep having dreams, really vivid dreams about people and then… Continue reading i’m back
Tag: thoughts
thoughts from a balcony
the title, is an ode to kojo. and because i am currently sitting on a balcony, looking up at the stars. it’s 5am and silent everywhere, i am the only one in the world awake. here’s a week’s worth of wondering. "smoke and sunset, off mulhollandhe was talkin, i was wonderin boutyou and that girl,… Continue reading thoughts from a balcony
august & other places
Hello my loves, Another photo dump for you all .xx ☼ ☼ All my love, Chloe .xx
waiting for the year to end
Hello my loves, I haven’t written in a while, properly. I seem to have kind of stopped doing that lately. I’ve currently been writing everything in my physical journal as of recent, because it feels better and like it does a better job of purging my feelings that way, though it seems I can only… Continue reading waiting for the year to end
july
05/07/22 I am so sad. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm falling apart. I just want to listen to Taylor's Red album and cry. Or the Unbroken album. I feel like I'm 18 and sad again. I don't know what's happening. It feels like a little depression cloud is making… Continue reading july
6th June
Hello my loves, Today marks 9 years since my best friend, my sister and my soulmate was taken away from me. A lovely uplifting sentence to introduce the post as always. What do I feel today? I'm not sure. Usually, or, well, I say usually, I guess up until the last few years, I would… Continue reading 6th June
going to therapy
Hello my loves, As you can probably tell from the title of this post, I'm finally going to therapy. Well, I've already been, once, and am now continuing to go. I mentioned in my mental break post that I was being referred for intensive therapy, which I still am, but the wait list was so… Continue reading going to therapy
Happy 5th Birthday Midnight Wanderer!
Hello my loves, Happy 5th birthday to Midnight Wanderer! It feels like such a long and short time since I created this blog, but what's for certain is a lot has changed and happened since then, and it's very strange that it's all logged here for essentially eternity, and I can go back to different… Continue reading Happy 5th Birthday Midnight Wanderer!
breakdown diary #4
today feels surreal, like no one's around. i went to the gym and it was empty, so i stayed on the treadmill for an hour listening to blur with my eyes closed feeling like i was somewhere else. watching all of the tiny people going about their lives in the windows below, knowing i wasn't… Continue reading breakdown diary #4
breakdown diary #3
heart out Sleep is now a crazy thing, getting knocked out and sent into such a deep sleep that I can't wake up from. When I do finally wake up, I'm fully awake in my head but have no energy to even open my eyes or speak, I literally cannot get out of bed. In… Continue reading breakdown diary #3