2000 followers!

Hello my loves, I cannot believe I'm saying this, but...thank you for 2000 followers. When I first started this blog back in early 2017, I used to follow people who had really amazing blogs with therefore, a lot of followers, and I was so inspired and used to think wow, I hope one day I …

beautiful world, where are you

Winter is different for me this year and it’s so nice, I don’t want to jinx it but that’s how it is. I feel happy and light and controlled and…not depressed. I don’t think the seasonal depression or Winter blues will get me this year, I’m finding myself able to enjoy Winter (aka, my favourite …

once upon a dream

I went to a funeral last week. I don't think it's my place to essentially be writing about it here, but writing about my own feelings and experience I guess isn't crossing a line, however, there are some things that need to remain unsaid, so sorry if any of this sounds cryptic. It affected me …

junk of the heart (happy)

july 2021, or was it june Drunk. Happy. We bond over our memory of a song. I’m searching through your Spotify playlists and gasp when I see one of my favourites in there, wondering how you found it and what the chances were of you even knowing it. I think it’s fate. The title of …

sour

Anxiety, anxiety, started following me. To put it lightly. It’s driving me crazy. Ever since this anxiety trip it’s been a constant battle, I’ve lost myself a lot and ever since it’s just been a battle of fighting to try and get myself back and more importantly, to stay there. I don’t feel very stable. …

rain running

Walking has become my new saviour. Anxiety has become the prison I find myself trapped in and I’ve been searching for things that allow me to set myself free. I bought Spotify premium and mental health-wise it’s been such a good investment. I use Spotify everyday anyway, but recently I’ve been using it even more …

anxiety trip

14/09/21 I lost my mind last week. Well, I didn’t, but I might as well have done. It felt like I did. It was one of the worst anxiety trips I’ve ever had, and it lasted for essentially an entire week. Normally when I have spells like that they’ll last a few days at a …

earthside

my anxiety has been playing up a lot lately . i’ve decided in order to fix this i should be spending time outdoors . i’ve also been reading conversations with friends by sally rooney and have noticed my inner monologue change to that of frances and the way that she thinks . or maybe we …

tulsa jesus freak

it’s 10pm. summer. kind of . i’m lying here in the dark listening to lana . the noise of a fan whirrs in the background, cool air falls over me and my hair moves in the breeze as it oscillates. i’m wearing an oversized t-shirt, there’s bruises on my legs from i don’t know where …

I don’t want the world to see me / iris

- an old post I wrote a long time ago, but one I'm going to share today - not everything is still applicable now, but it was at the time. 16/06/18 I remember being 12 or 13 driving home from somewhere with my family. I was staring out of the window zoning out until the …